I just went to the diner with my best friend. We sit down and notice directly next to us is my ex and her new boyfriend (who lives in Spain and doesn’t speak English). I thought we might cross paths this summer, but I didn’t think it would happen within 2 days of coming home. I lost my shit, but I didn’t say anything, or make a fool out of myself. Her parents had the decency to come say hi, but she wouldn’t even look at me. After being ignored, hurt, and disregarded by her for this long, I wouldn’t expect anything better. She truly disgusts me. If only I could let go of all the anger I have, I’d be so much happier. I realize that I’m in love with an idea, with the past, and none of it exists any more. She’s a different person, a monster to be honest, and I want nothing to do with her. It’s time to put the past in the past and move forward for my own sake. It’s so hard, especially being in this place where everything has an association with her. I can’t even go to the supermarket without being overwhelmed with memories and emotions. I loved too deeply, and I got played for a fool, and it’s time I realize I deserve better. I keep trying, and hope that with every step back I get a few further. I’m going to have a good summer. 

 more cardio and less salami for meeeee.

i’m trying to make the most of it. avoiding the things that bring me down, diving into the things that make me happy. this summer’s going to be all about being the best person i can be, for myself. 

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